
Still getting over worst flu i've ever had!



Yep, Fourth of July is a day away, and I have no plans. My poor hubby keeps trying to get me to commit to something, and I come up with the same ole thing, "Let's hang out at home, then drive over to ____ to watch the fireworks". Simple huh? That's what I want. Then he's like, wanna call someone to come over? Oh my, I'd have to clean...although...I did just clean the toilets for NO reason at all, hmmmm. Anyhoo, each day is full, though not with too much fun. I study, clean house (a little, I don't go crazy for pity sake), study and that's about it. I am supposed to do 100 questions a day, but the 75 on Kaplan takes me HOURS, and then I don't wanna! And I also need to review materials that I'm weak on. My testing day is Aug. 3rd..did I already mention that in previous post? Anyway, I've got MAJOR butterflies, and LOTS of studying to do before then.


Yesterday, I had my first Jane Austen Literary Association for the Advancement of Fine Literature meeting ie: jane austen book club. I just felt like it needed a longer title. Lets see what it comes out to.... JALAAFL hmmmmm kind of....... "ja!l'awful"! Kinda funny. We all had sooo much fun. Two teenagers, and 3 adult women (one of the teen gals was a no-show). We laughed and laughed it was so much fun. My daughter was the decorator,
and here are my 8.... though 8 is just too much for me, so I'll give 4.Ummmm....yes, I am done with nursing school. Completely and totally. I am absolutely floating today I am telling you. It's been 7 years. You know... a couple years of prerequisites, and the long wait to get in, then three years of actual nursing school. Yeah, it should've been 2 years, but SOME of us like to reeeeeeeeeeeaaly study certain subjects/semesters twice, so there you have it, THREE years. But that is OK, I made it through, and I cannot believe the difference in myself from my first day in a patients room...to yesterday's. I am so comfortable, and happy when I'm with a patient. God has certainly gotten me through this whole process, giving me courage and fortitude. And of course my hubby. I don't think i could've done it without him! Or if I did, my kids would be bitter angry adolescents today. He has been driving them and making dinner on MANY MANY nights!



Thanks to all of you who sent up a prayer for me. Yesterdays preceptoring went SO much better. I wasn't totally pain-free, but it was completely manageable. I talked with teacher, who gave me some good ideas, and I brought back support just in case. Also I worked with a different nurse who took a few breaks and sat when she could. I was much more mindful of sitting when I could or putting my foot up while standing etc. So thanks guys, only 6 more days to go! And I have 3 days off to recoup. Yesterdays nurse preceptor actually let me do some full assessments on mom, so it was much more fun. If the nurse is not in the room, I am so much more confidant, and the patients relax more with me. Tough but good day.
(this pic reminded me of a shot I had to give yesterday to a little 22 hr old baby. Boy was he mad, he was just shaking with anger and screaming his little head off, poor thing. The mommy said he got so mad, that the only think that calmed him down 10 minutes later was taking off all his blankets and laying him on his mommy, skin to skin. Gee, I feel kinda bad now, if I wasn't sorta smiling. But he was just so cute when he was sooo mad.)
was sooo horrible. Not because of the babies (they are amazingly adorable), not because of my preceptor, she is wonderful. But because of massive pain.
I don't know if I've mentioned that I have ongoing back pain, (I probably have...) that is only managed by exercise and stretching, and that's pretty limited. I am okay if I'm moving, walking or sitting (unless it's for hours upon hours...you know like studying!), but the WORST thing for my back is standing still, and standing and leaning. Guess what you do alll day in mother/baby? A whooooooole lot of standing and leaning. There is a lot of teaching, coaching (w/nursing etc.) and you stand for 20 min. at a time. I felt like crying most of the day, the pain was so bad. I had a reeeally hard time concentrating, and learning everything I needed to learn, it was all so new. So I call my clinical teacher, but my phone won't work, so I send him a text. Then my phone dies, great. Well this morning I received his voicemail to me saying I'm pretty much stuck there. So I will call him this morning, I will work out my back, but I could reeeeally use your prayers pleeeeease! I go back tomorrow. It really would be a great rotation if I wasn't in pain. Thanks so much everyone.
P.S. Just talked to my clinical instructor, and I am stuck there. I will modify my day and talk to my preceptors, I may even bring a stool for my foot (helps relieve some pressure) and buy a back support today, just in case. Urgh. Please pray for me, thanks.

Kinda how I'm feeling today... Kinda stormy, and stressed, but also knowing that I need to stop, slow down and breeeeeathe!