afterglow...

(I thought it would be fun to put a pic. of me up here for those who don't know me. This pic is from last year, i don't have any too recent. And you can subtract 20 lbs from that rear and thighs, but still it's me.)

yes, the afterglow of my first semester in nsg. Of course it's not a perfect afterglow since i need to retake one of my classes, but still, i can breathe and relax a little.

I've had some sort of strange flu. Low grade fever, with severe headaches that last nearly all day. tylenol, ibuprofen, sudafed didn't touch it. Today it's just a little, so i took 3 ibup. just in case, and i'm trying to take it easy today. Which is hard since i really need to get christmas shopping! I've gotten all extraneous gifts, but not many of my nuclear family. But it's gonna have to wait 'til tomorrow. Got my grade in Pharm yesterday. Got a B on my final (better than i thought) and a high B in the class. That first A sure helped my overall grade. And I got a B in Intro. to Nursing. And a withdraw in the one i need to redo.

Daughter is still home sick. We've set up some new appts for her. We will prob set up homeschool thru her high school, so her grades won't get effected. That's tricky for me since i don't know whether i should try to go for a CNA job before i begin my class in March. Everyone else doing fine. Hope you're enjoying the season. I LOVE this cold weather, don't you?

Last final

Phew! All done! Feeling a tad melancholy about my class going on, and me going back. Even though i know it will really help me, it's still hard to swallow, that ego, or pride or whatever you want to call it. It was hard saying goodbye to so many nice people, but I know i'll make a whole mess of new friends. I don't think i did as well on the final as i would've liked, but i did get an A+ on the drug group project, so that ought to help me a bit. I won't start 193 until March! Wow that's a long time. I will start pharm in the spring sem though. I think that's mid-January.

Daughter is still home sick (going on 2 1/2 wks out, plus many other missed days) with we don't know what. We are waiting for insurance authorization for a catscan. So in the mean time, we pick up her work so she doesn't get behind. Please send up a prayer for her. Thanks.

slow and steady

studying for my last final. Pharm tomorrow, then i'm done. I feel like i'm already done, so it is hard to buckle down and study. But study i must!! I'm feeling a little melancholy about my classmates going on without me. They're so rude, not retaking class with me! At least there will be 2 others going back with me.

Keeping my chin up!

okay, both of them, haha. I find that I'm eating more since I've got more time on my hands. I really need to watch that! Had pharm review yesterday, i think I'll do well on this exam since i have more time than usual. I still need to meet w/ nsg director about signing up for next classes for next semester. the puter won't let me, because all the classes are co-classes. it won't let me just sign up for one. Also, I'm hoping to get that F switched to a W. I went to the nsg party yesterday and i was feeling a little melancholy there, seeing all my classmates moving on without me. I can't believe they didn't all storm the nsg office with flames in there hands and blood on there minds! The least they could do is stage a peaceful sit-in for there fallen sister (me). But noooooooooooo, they are all just planning on moving ahead to the next semester. They are sooo selfish.

I know i lost it there for a minute, but i caught the sane train back and I'm okay. At least there will be a couple of us going back to do it again to help each other. I really am happy for them (classmates), they have been just as stressed as I. Final friday, must go pick up the book. Have a good tuesday.

Weekend before finals

So i finally look at studying again, since my big fall from grace, because i know that we have a review for pharm on monday. I know the final is on a friday, so i'm assuming that means the following week.. but nooooooooooooooooooo it's this friday. Eeeeek, haven't cracked a book since the breakdown.. So I am getting on with it today. This time next week i'll be all done, yay! I am feeling surprisingly relaxed these days. The one blip in my otherwise stress-free life is that i missed the withdrawal date for the class i failed out of. So now instead of a W, it will say F. Dang it. I'm gonna beg the director to fix that seeing she was supposed to call me on that very date to let me know how the "team" were going to react to my complaint. She never called me, so i didn't drop etc. So we'll see. The worst thing that can happen, is that i'll have to request the F to be removed from my records once i pass it next time around.

I've been looking into other RN schools that i MIGHT transfer to once i finish this next semester. I'm seeing if they are also insane crazy stressful. If i can find one less stressful, but still a good school, i might consider changing schools after this next do over. Any ideas anyone for orange county nursing schools that are great yet manageable??? Thanks for everyones support, your e's and comments have kept me afloat.

Strike Three!

(doesn't that look like some tidey-whities? but it's an iceberg, silly)


Okay, good news first. I am more relaxed than i've been in MONTHS, okay the bad news, as i know you've guessed........... I failed my 3rd attempt at the sterile wound competency. The same un named teacher tested me, and had me do stuff that not one other person had to do. I did it over and over correctly but still it went on.......... dragging on.............. and i was brave, but then i got pissed, and started getting careless. And yes, the back of my hand supposedly touched the curtain. I don't recall it, but that's what she said. So the first day, i was a little spazzy, a mess really. Crying and nashing of teeth etc. I spoke my mind to said professor, i guess she didn't appreciate that. I cooled off eventually, went and took an exam, later apologized to said professor, though i told her, that what i said was what i believed, though i said it in a disrespectful manner. I wrote in the report what she did unfairly that she did not mention in her report. I then spoke w/ mentor, pharm prof, and lastly the director (had to wait around for hours for her grrrr) and the director backed said evil prof. so i'm screwed. I was a mess for a day, then the following day, yesterday, i was almost downright GLEEFUL. Now, i'm darned relaxed. I will go back in next semester for the second half, to retake the class I uh....flunked. there i said it. I'm out for this quarter. though i have to say, I always felt like i was barely hangin' on, putting out fires you know? So I believe it will be a good thing all around when I do go back, not so lost, overwhelmed etc.

And K. has some kind of mystery illness that's been haunting her all semester, she's missed tons of school, so i know i can deal with that more effectively. (appt.'s etc) She's not so sick that we are totally scared, but sick enough that she needs to be home near the RR.

So that's the scoop. I'm still in Pharm, so i'll finish that up. Hey, i'll actually be able to scrap and enjoy Christmas this year! Yay! Thanks for everyones support, I'm still moving forward, just a little slower... you know, one step forward, two steps back.... hee hee.