Thursday, November 16, 2006

I was jumped......




Today as i dropped into school to turn in some paperwork, I had both clinical instructors suggest a little chat, just the 3 of us. (cozy eh?) So i said, "ah this can't be good. You're not gonna gang up on me are you?" But they did. For the next half hour, I heard about all my short comings in clinical. It seems I am at point D when I ought to be at point oh..... P. This was not good to hear since I feel like I've been working my tail off as it is. I thought, that everyone was struggling with the same stuff as I. But my prev instructor had been pointing out to new clin instructor (no names please) my foibles of last quarter. I didn't think they would follow, and bite me on my proverbial butt. But lucky for me (sarcasm here) the old instructor makes sure to let the new know because it is a pattern. I will not go into ALL the details but it boiled down to this... If i can't get myself to point P right away, I will have to repeat the whole frickn' semester! All that work for almost nothing. Even though I am getting B's in everything, passed every competency thus far, never been late on any assignment or missed any test, i can still get kicked out. So I've been doing a lot of crying today. Miss H lets me know, don't worry, you have a couple wks before you'd have to withdraw if that's necessary. That's not so dang comforting when the sem is done after 3 more clinicals! I had been counting down, to get through all this stress, and now that countdown may be a joke. I'm so hurt right now, and feel so dang incompetent. So I'm gonna cry in my tea tonight, and pick up myself tomorrow. Would love some encouragement from all. Thanks!

6 comments:

Andrea said...

What? I think you're doing very well in clinical. Hang in there Heather. Prove them wrong. 3 more clinicals, we can do this!

Sending hugs via email.

Andrea :)

Anonymous said...

You're right, that seems really, really wrong. It seems like they could come up with something less draconian than have you flunk the whole thing when you've done so well. Do you feel like you could come up with substantial ways to improve in clinical or are you at a loss? Do you feel bullied? Do you feel like it's personal, like they're punishing you for something other than your performance? Now I feel like one of those lawyer commercials on TV. In any case, I hope you're feeling better. Even now, I still say hang in there, Heather.

Heather said...

Hi anonyms, whoever you are! :) No, I don't think it was bullying. They had sound reasons, but I had thought everyone was where i was. My pride and ego are burned, but they had true statements that i need to correct. Nothing life or death (or unsafe to the patient) but i guess bad enough, that i needed a bit of an a*% whooping.

Ann said...

Hi Heather:

I'm so sorry to hear you went through so much yesterday. I've been thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers. YOU HANG IN THERE! Don't give up!

Much Love,
The Carnie :)

Anonymous said...

Heather!

Things sometimes go WEIRD but at the end you are going to see the SUNSHINE!
Hang in there you might not be the only one in trouble we ALL go through the same in different ways!
I think you are doing GOOD!
I'll keep you in my prayers like always...

your friend

Heather said...

hey anonymous's, sign your name if i know you please. or if you wish to remain anonymous i will respect that