Ooooh those doubts be creepin' in....

So this is the second wk of clinicals, and i get more bad news and more doubts. I found out yesterday that I failed the second math competency by a HALF ! point! Can you believe it? I felt like i was breezing through it, but i made sure to show more work since that was written all over my past test. I had 2 left to go, when the general, er teacher says to pass them up. So that was 2 i missed, then a half somewhere else. We took an exam Tues. that i felt good about, i think i at least passed. We'll get the news on Monday concerning that. I haven't even started the Pharm class which I was forced to take on line. Then yesterday, I get a note on a hw that says, "see me" you know that's never good. I thought I was getting spoken to about the blanks on my paper, but noooooooooooo. I find out that I was "written up" for leaving my patients bed in a high position. I had already gotten spoken to about it, but i guess that wasn't enough, so now i have a notice in my permanent file concerning it. Great. Well not so. Also I'm spoken to concerning my sometimes too big personality that overly influences others in my group. Well shoot, i am a loud mouth, so i really do need to watch myself a bit more. Point taken. It was just too much "negative" for one day though, and I'm feeling a little sucky about the whole thing.

Then today, i wake up at oh... 4:14 am (I have to get up at 4:40 anyway) with a flaming bladder infection. Great, Im missing my first day of class, clinicals on top of it, and I'm totally prepared, did all my hw, AND my foot is sooo dang painful that I can't walk on it. I get this foot thing every now and then, so crap. I'm home with a bladder infection and painful foot thingy. Great. Maybe God is wanting me to think about nsg school a little. If i were to fail the math test for the 3rd time, I'd be out on my butt anyway. (Although i was surprised that i failed this time)
So shit. Yes I said shit. Today will be a day for thinking. I am not going to make any rash decisions concerning nsg. school, I've worked too dang hard to get here. But there are some definite draw backs that i strongly dislike about the program. Sooooo... we'll see. I just may have to rename this blog to.... "Dreamin' up some new dreams..."

THE CLINICALS ARE COMING!

Well I got through my exam, and i felt pretty good about it. I think I at least passed it, maybe even got a B, but I'll find out tomorrow. Took 2 competencies so far. The math I did not pass by ONE bloody point! Grrrr! Darned frustrating, that. My Vital signs comp., I passed all but the pulse. It was so hard to feel Lilly's pulse. So I'll redo it on a real life patient this wk! I'll have to retake the math, but i'm going to first take a math review they're supposed to have for us.

Now... on the the really scary stuff. This Wed, Thur, I will have a real life patient to care for. Pretty darned scary! I just hope I don't have to perineal him/her. Can't they work us into that??? Scary, scrubbing crotches! The good thing is that we'll only have class Mon and Tues this wk. The bad thing is that we'll have to do assessments and care plans. Eeeeek, this stuff is now way more real!

Zombie weekend

So this wknd i am eating, sleeping, breathing vital signs, asepsis, hygiene, 02 trasport and activity/mobility. As if that's not enough, I had homework for 2 hours. Yes I'm whining. I just hope i can remember this stuff! Off I go back to my flashcards and notes. Please pray for me!
I'm sooo tired....

Week Two

Hey, Yep i made it through the first wk and yesterday we had our first competency on math. It was VERY basic math, but it's been sooooo dang long that i took that math that i feel like i had to learn it all over again. I know i did pretty well (for me) but prob didn't pass since we could only miss 3. We haven't been told yet, it's driving me crazy. We have our first exam on Tues. and i have tons to study. I think a lot of it is common sense, but another part is VERY exact information that could be very tricky. I'll be working on that all wknd.

We learned how to do Phys assessments yesterday. It is so amazing to me that i am learning to know how to check people's health! What an amazing privelege. I do have a hard time not being overly silly all the time. Leslie likes to be Mr. Fox, or yesterday Mr. Greenfield, and I like to be Mr. Duffy or the Transvestite Mr. Smith. We are laughing but still learning. No one else is giggling in the class, how can they not laugh at coming up with medical scenarios. I am having a blast!

I still have grand doubts of getting through, but i will take it one day at a time!

How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.